wtf have i become,
doing all this nonsense again, and now bearing the consequences
i've learnt my lesson, never will i touch such stuff again
maybe its a lesson given to me straight from above
now i've learned, will you please stop the pain in my eyes
it's killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
for 3 straight days i've been tortured by this intense pain
and it hurts even more with the medicine, and it doesnt seem
to be getting any better, after this i swear i will turn over a new leaf
i will be a better person and not be an asshole like what i was
everybody makes mistakes, so did i, although its a recurring one
but heck, i want to be cured, thats it, i had enough of this gangster,
undercover and illegal shit, i want to forget all this and get on with life
leaving all this behind, because its pointless and it just drags you down
to hell, you wont even realize it, yeah curiousity leads to all this, but wtf
is curiousity when you're hooked or when your health is affected,
no one will give a shit about curiousity when this kinda things happen.
i rather pull out now and learn my lesson than to continue and lest
something worse happens, i want to be curedddddddddddddddd
please. one last chance.

right, so this years new year's day countdown was awesome
joined hasan and his friends over at chalet, fish and wei lie came along too
it was nice, we basically just ate and drank and caught up on each others lives
and talked about how we enjoyed being classmates last sem
too bad all that is gone now =(
so i stayed over at his place, talked the whole night til 7am, where i made my
way to hougang for the match against austin's team
yeah, even when im supposed to be out for playing soccer due to my foot injury
but who cares? hahahaha
ya well anyway, my foot was hurting like %^&* and i was feeling extremely tired
due to the abundance of alcohol in my blood. but still, a new year, and another year
has passed and i ain't forgotten about you my dear joyce satitkasem
so i just put my belive, like i always did , in your eyes, and looked at your picture
and told myself i'll win this game for you, and true enough, we did, even with and injured foot,
and lots of injuries in our team, still i managed to put the 4 goals in for a victory,
and im quite surprised as to how i did that, well, i'd say its the sparkle in your eyes
that gives me the confidence to do things that are highly impossible.
sadly, this is the 2nd year where i wished i could spend my countdown/newyear's day
with her, but argh heck, at least she still messaged me happy new year, and thats more than enough! right im turning in now, i havent slept for 30 hours, and been extremely active , im almost like a walking zombie now, !

wow i love today's weather, at least its the only good thing about this year's christmas eve
other than that things pretty much suck, cos i broke my toe,
im having a bad flu, and i cant play soccer for a month, which pretty much spoils everything
and can also hear my mum and dad quarrelling as im typing this in my room. =/
anyway, merry christmas everyone, enjoy yourselves. :D

i just discovered that the uncle who rents out bicycles at the coffeeshop
near my house is gay, and im freaked out, cos he targets me and my group
of friends, omg. i always go there to watch soccer, and he keeps talking about cocks
to us and keeps touching us, and picturing the size of our er-hems
god, save me !

wtf happened to everything man
wtf happened to trekking
its like all's gone, no more trekking
no more b&b or whatsoever
secondly, what happened to sch
its become more sucky since sem 2 started
with dumbass classmates
argh
wish i could go back to sem1
anyway i kinda feel like as if some people
just make empty promises and use friends for the sake of shelter
and once the storm is over, they dump their friends like a torn umbrella
and continue on with their life, maybe some would know who im talking about
=)

maybe confessing was stupid
but still, im not sure if its a positive or
negative outcome,
she was so jubiliant when i told her
kept laughing, smiling, but then
im afraid its cos she doesnt know what to say
but either way, im glad i did it, cos i couldnt take it
any longer, i had to let her know how i feel,
and i did it, and i pray that the outcome is positive
cos this is one person whom i really treasure in life
i love you J

yeah man a7x are coming to singapore on oct 24
and im going to see them live
so fucking excited man, my most most favourite band
hahahahah
and going with my cousin, gonna be double the fun
mosh the hell out of ppl there
tickets are bought, so guranteed places
and i miss J terribly!

Vik
17, 5th july, 1991
a guy, who takes life s it comes


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